30 Days of Kink – Day #4: A Prelude to Kink

Write about any early experiences that, in retrospect, hinted at your kinks.

When I was younger I used to love to be naked. To be naked was to confront this idea that my parents taught me that being naked was inappropriate, Hell I even got grief being shirtless during the summer.

But I did, I loved being naked. And I loved being naked outdoors. It might sound strange to some but being hidden away in the countryside, trees towering over me, my feet planted in fresh mud, the air on my ass – I felt in communion with something. And the fact that it was daring and different drove me into a frenzy.

I masturbated several times hidden in my little spots, far from the view of my folk’s place. I’ve laid down in the mud and would grind my cock into the earth and come so intensely.

Later, much later, I would discover that all of this was because I was in touch with my primal self. And that blew me away.

It was a startling revelation – but it was a revelation that spanned not just across my childhood but my entire life. I was in touch with this energy I was scared of, yet fascinated by. I always felt different. I always felt like no one could connect to me, that these thoughts I had were irrational.

So through learning I was in touch with this energy, I learned that MY LIFE was this beginning of exploring kink, because it was through understanding the concepts within the dynamic that I came to understand my thoughts, pleasant or unpleasant, that I worked up the courage to be more in touch with my feelings and acknowledging them. And through all this I worked up the courage to fight the fear of those intense thoughts, fear I still have when I post on the blog and worry that today is the day my sexual deviancy lets me down.

This primal dynamic is sort of the foundation to my sexual nature and weaves in and out through my non sexual life.

8 thoughts on “30 Days of Kink – Day #4: A Prelude to Kink

  1. Thanks so much for sharing this. I identify with your words. I used to do the same when I was young and still do when I get chance. On holiday in the countryside, I would love to strip naked and wander through fields or woodland. I’ve since discovered how many others enjoy it too and learnt to throw away the guilty feelings.

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      1. Yes I think I will. I wrote about kink origins on another blog. I might import it back to this one. I’m getting tired of compartmentalising everything but, in my profession, it’s often necessary.

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      2. You shouldn’t compartmentalise. At least not too much, as that can often lead to things coming back to haunt you.

        I’d love to read about your origins or any other kink thoughts you want to share, so long as you promise you won’t compartmentalise when it comes to sharing them.

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      3. I’ve re-imported my origins post back to here. Hope you can find it. If I can work out how to get a link, I’ll post it here. I also re-added the first three parts of my first attempt at writing kink fiction. It’s a cuckold/bondage fantasy called ‘Denial’. I hope you enjoy it.

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